Toddler Tilda?

Today has been a difficult day for David and I.

Our beautiful niece turned two and we spent all afternoon with family at her party.

It was a lovely afternoon and Esther and William had a wonderful time with all their cousins.

I struggled.

I struggled because all the Henleys were together and Tilda should have been there.

She should have been crawling around getting under everyone’s feet and trying to join in all the toddler fun.

I struggled because Matilda Mae never had and now never will have a birthday of her own.

I cannot believe that in just a few weeks we would have been planning her first birthday party.

What a pretty party girl she would be!

Life just doesn’t seem fair.

I am not certain anything is ever going to feel right for us ever again.

Baby Tilda will forever be Baby Tilda.

But I can’t help wondering what kind of toddler she might have been?

Toddler Tilda?

I think she may have looked a little like Toddler Me.

Do you?

Baby Tilda

Toddler Me

16 thoughts on “Toddler Tilda?

  1. I guess family events must bring so much comfort yet so much pain at the moment, I can’t even begin to imagine the emotions you must be feeling. I think she would definitely have looked like you as a toddler looking at the photos together 🙂

  2. I have heard it said that grieving is as much about the loss of future plans as it is about loss of your loved one, so your loss must feel overwhelming. Your time with Baby Tilda had only just begun. You will one day realise that you have a different normal than the one you had planned. It will never be “right” to be without her, but you are always her mum, so you will never be truly without her. And, one day, it will be ok, please remember that. Remember what you wrote, you want to make her proud. Sometimes it’s enough just to keep breathing, never mind being strong.

  3. Matilda is so gorgeous Jennie, I think she certainly has your eyes, beautiful girl. Sending you my love and all my thoughts with you tonight xxx

  4. No I don’t think anything will ever feel right again Jennie, there will always be a Tilda shaped hole in your lives, but fill it with happy memories and love from your friends and family. I think that Tilda would have been the spitting image of you, warm chocolate eyes and a huge smile to melt your heart. See her in the mirror Jennie.

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