I Hate The Second!

So tomorrow is the second of April.

Baby Tilda was born on the second of May.

She died on the second of February.

I HATE the second.

Every second of every second I hate the second!

We should have been celebrating another month of life.

Instead we mourn another month of death.

A terrible tandem someone said to me today.

Only death where life should be.

I hate the second.

13 thoughts on “I Hate The Second!

  1. I hate that you hurt so badly, I hate that there is nothing anyone can do to take your pain away. I hate that life is so unfair and baby Tilda was taken away. You are always in our thoughts Jennie, how I wish you wasn’t so sad. Love always x

  2. Listen to me said the wind, empty yourself so I may pray through you

    Feel me said the sun, turn to face me so I may embrace you

    Gaze upon me said the moon, so I may guide you through the landscapes of dreaming

    Search me said the stars, so we may guide your vision heavenward

    Dance in me said the rain, so I may wash over you and sweeten your tears

    Flow with me said the river, so I can carry you and ease your journey

    Fly with me said the bird, so I may raise you to new heights of seeing

    Companion me said the lover, so I may see myself through the light in your eyes

    Cry into me said the earth, so I may grow a resplendent garden

    Play with me said the child, so I may show you what freedom is

    Hold my hand said the friend, so I may share the journey

  3. I know this seems trivial to say because this is your life and your grief, but I can’t believe it’s been two months already Jennie! It seems like only yesterday that I read your tweet, how has so much time passed already? I’m so sorry sweetheart.

  4. We’ve never met but I’ve been following your inspirational blog for a while as my 2 children are a similar age to yours. I’ve been thinking of you and your beautiful family so often since I read the terrible news about baby Tilda. Nothing I can possibly say can help, but I wanted you to know that I’m thinking of you and sending you love. x

  5. myself and family think and pray for you so much. Your beautiful girl is in heaven, watching how amazing her mummy is. She is being so looked after by the Lord is heaven, He is caring for her and protecting her always. Little ones taken too early by death are so precious to Christ, He has such a special place for them. I can’t imagine how hard this has been, and continues to be, for you but know that Tilda is at peace, resting in the most perfect and wonderful place where the Bible says there are no more tears, no more hurt, not more pain. Just pure happiness. You have been such an inspiration to many through this, especially in raising awareness of SIDS. We now donate monthly to this charity because of you and im sure more research will be done thanks to you and your being so brave to write about your gorgeous girl. God bless you and your family, we will never forget you and Tilda. Xxxxxx

  6. Jennie, we’ve not met and I’ve never posted on here before. But I keep being drawn to your blog and feel so desperately sorry for your loss. I have twins a little younger than Esther and William and am in awe of how you are staying strong for them. Matilda Mae was beautiful and your blog has touched me more than words can say. Am thinking of you and your family

  7. “It is in the darkest skies that the brightest stars are best seen”. My thoughts are with you every day. I hope you feel the presence of your precious angel tomorrow xx

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