I had a bleed, I thought I might lose baby
But you did not!
My baby will not sleep, my baby wants to be held all the time
But they are alive!
I am so fat, I feel so sick, I am so tired, My ankles are swollen
But you are pregnant!
My toddler is such hard work
But they are here!
Loss has made me lose my sympathy
Loss has made me lose my patience
Loss has made me lose compassion
I have lost a pregnancy.
My baby is dead.
I am not pregnant.
My toddler is not here as she should be.
Has loss made me less compassionate.
On my best days I can ignore all the moaning and whinging and ungrateful parents that I see
But on my worst days I am bitter and angry and hurting
Because I will never understand why all of this has happened to me.
Continues to happen to me.
Loss has given me perspective
Loss has helped me see
But I think it has also put me in a position
Where I cannot be the person, friend or relation that I would like to be.
What has loss cost you?