Earlier this year we treated Esther and William to a day at Thomas Land.
They have had lots of treats this year.
They, we, have had a tough tough year.
One year ago I promised myself that I would do everything I could to make sure my family had fun together.
One year ago I promised myself that I would be the best mummy I could be to my three children.
One year ago I promised that I would always see the good in people and situations.
One year ago I promised that I would make the most of every moment.
All because one year ago a mummy I hugely admired died
A mummy who had helped in so many ways had been snatched from the heart of her family
A brave and strong mummy who had shown such fight had heartbreakingly lost her battle.
Multiple Mummy died.
One year ago.
One year ago I promised that I would be the best mummy I could be
I did not know that just 7 weeks later I would have an angel of my own
That my own family would be ripped apart
My own world turned upside down
Just 7 weeks after they were made
All those promises were put on hold
As I focused on learning to live again
Learning to live without my 9 month old daughter
Our baby Matilda Mae
Losing a mummy, a baby
Is the cruelest stroke of fate
There is no going back
Nothing can ever ever be the same again
There is no normal
Every day is a challenge
Nothing can stay the same
But as much as it hurts every breath you take
For the living, life does have to go on
And so you slowly start to do what you can
To make the best life you can
For those that you can
And in doing so build a legacy
In doing so make them proud
In doing so ensure they are remembered
For all that they were and should be
Living the best life that you can
In loving memory
Of those so cruelly gone.
And so we sent to Thomas Land.
For seven magical hours.
And we talked about Tilda all the day
We shouted her name to the skies
Although she is not here with us
She is and always will be
At the centre of all we do
Today is one year since the beautiful Kerry died
A candle burns here for an angel
A candle burns here for our star
Two MMs in the sky tonight
Two families changed forever
From one MM to another
From one family to another
Love and understanding
Thinking of you x
We are sharing our festive family frolics in memory of Multiple Mummy and Matilda Mae today.