Last year losing Baby Tilda taught the importance of making the most of every day
Losing Baby Tilda made me so grateful for my blog
Losing Baby Tilda made me so so so thankful for the thousands upon thousands of photos I took during her little life
9 months of life and I recorded every single day
I did not write every day
But I have photos from every single day of her life
They are my lifeline to her now
They keep my memories fresh
They make me smile
I carry them with me everywhere
I will never be without my photos of Baby Matilda Mae
This year I am going to endeavour to make the most of every day
With Esther and William
In memory of Matilda Mae
They are not making it easy for me so far
We have not had an easy start to 2014
Illness and toddlerness
Teamed with sadness and grief
They are an exhausting combination
But I have started the year as I mean to go on
Finding some magic in every day
Photoing moments every day
For the fourth year in a row
I am starting Project 365
And this year I am determined to finish it
For my little family
For Matilda Mae
This year started with a candle
Lit just before midnight
To carry Tilda’s light from 2013 to 2014
I could not bear to start the year without her
David started the year snuggled up to a restless, poorly Esther
I started the year with Matilda Mae
And two beautiful friends
Remembering their own baby in the sky
I told Tilda how much I missed her
And how I will never forget her
I promised to honour her
And to continue raising money and awareness in her name
She is my daughter
I cannot and I will not let her go
I will build her legacy
A pink and purple legacy
Of candlelight, bubbles and stars
On the second day of 2014
We travelled to Fowey
We had lunch at Pink Murphys
Which is a wonderful place
Before heading to a windy beach
For a play by the sea
Watching kites and surfers
Playing in the sand
Taking pictures
My other daughter and me
My eldest daughter and I
My first born
On the third day of the year
We enjoyed a return visit to the jungle
The rainbow forest
Eden
Our first visit had been on new years day
It seemed the perfect place to be
On a stormy winters day
Space to roam and run and play
Space to breathe and be
We all adored The Eden Project
And cannot wait to go back in May
On the fourth of January
We travelled home
With sadness and heavy hearts
I wonder if I will ever be able to leave Coombe Mill without tears?
Home
With Tilda
She is my daughter
I cannot and I will not let her go
I will build her legacy
A pink and purple legacy
Of candlelight, bubbles and stars
As with all your posts this was perfect, i had not came across your blog before the loss of your daughter but have been reading since. I have always wanted to comment but im not sure i could ever find the correct words to say how sorry i am . Baby Tilda sounded like a wonderful baby and you an amazing mother , all three of your babies are very lucky to have you in your life. I hope 2014 is as kind to you all as it can be..
This was such a beautiful post, as always Jenny. And once again brought tears to my eyes. I adore how you lit a candle to bring little Tilda from 2013 into 2014, what a beautifully, tender and sweet thing to do. You are an amazing Mum. I hope you know this! Beautiful photos too, that Eden project place looks like fun! xx
Beautiful photos of both of your girls for the start of 2014 Jennie xxx
Lovely post, lovely photos. I am glad Tilda was there to help you from 2013 to 2014.
Beautiful post Jennie especially when you re hurting so much. Lovely photos x
Good luck with the 365 photo challenge x x x
No baby Tilda will never be forgotten, she will always be your daughter, and she will always be special. You are doing her proud and her legacy one day will be massive.
Esther looks so grown up in that picture. Is that a giant pineapple she is stood at?
Looking forward to seeing your pictures through the year
Beautiful photos, as much as I try to take photos each day I need to try and get into the habit again! I hope the twins are feeling better now x
Beautiful post Jennie and lovely photos. Matilda Mae will never be forgotten. x
beautifully written and composed as ever Jennie and i wish you lots of luck in completing this year of photos every day on your blog. It must be lovely to escape and go to MM at the wonderful Coombe Mill – a mix of tears and laughter i am sure.
i wish you and your family a happier 2014 and MM will never be forgotten x x x
Some lovely photos and beautiful words. All the best for 2014 and I look forward to seeing more of your 365 journey.
Beautiful words and photos for the start of your year. I truly hope that 2014 can bring you some moments of peace and that your 365 photos will build into a collection of happy moments for you to treasure xx
Glad to have you back on board and I look forward to seeing lots of photos of William and Esther having fun!
Thanks for linking up to Project 365.