Remembering an Angel when a Rainbow Comes

In the next three weeks

All being well

Our Rainbow Baby will be born

I am so looking forward to meeting her

But I am also worried about how I am going to feel

I still miss my angel baby

Matilda Mae

With all my heart and soul

I want to somehow include her

In the birth of her rainbow sibling

I want to have a sign

A way of showing Tilda

That her new little sister is here

I also want to show friends and family

And shout to the world

That though we have our rainbow in our arms

We still very much have our angel in our thoughts and our hearts

And we would give anything to have our second daughter with us here

So how can we

How can anyone

Remember an angel baby when a rainbow comes?

Bubbles

When we bring Rainbow Baby home from the hospital

I am going to sit with her in Baby Tilda’s garden

And blow bubble kisses to the sky

A sign to Baby Tilda that Rainbow Baby is here

And that we are all sending so much love

bubbles for matilda mae

A Plant or Flower

I am going to plant a special plant or flower

Into Tilda’s garden

To mark the arrival of our Rainbow

To show that she fits into our family alongside Matilda Mae

With her, not instead of her

Family Sculpture

One thing I am going to buy for a central place in our home

Is a family sculpture like this one

From The Midnight Orange

It will include all of us

Esther and William as sunshine babies

Tilda as a pink and purple angel

And our little rainbow baby

The design can also be added to

As we hopefully continue to add to our family

family portrait midnight orange

Suncatcher

In our new bedroom

We have a window seat overlooking Baby Tilda’s memory garden

I would like to hang a suncatcher in the window

One that can be seen from outside

But also shines special light into the room

I really like this rainbow angel

And think it is a lovely way

To celebrate our Rainbow Baby

And remember Matilda Mae

rainbow angel

Baby Gift from Angel Sister

Esther and William have chosen gifts to give to their new little sister

I do not want Matilda Mae to be forgotten

I love the idea of a mobile

From Tilda to Rainbow

As Rainbow would be looking up to the sky

The most beautiful one I have found is this

rainbow stars

A rainbow constellation

A rainbow of falling stars

We have chosen a rainbow themed nursery for our Rainbow Baby

It seems the right thing to do

It enables us to remember Tilda

As we all move forward with our new normal

It is important to me that Matilda is remembered

At Esther and William’s birthday party

All the guests will paint starfish for Tilda

Lots of bright and beautiful stars of the sea

Will be hung in Tilda’s garden for her to see

To see that she is not forgotten

That she never will be forgotten

As we prepare to welcome our Rainbow

We get ready to commemorate and celebrate our Angel too

Poor poor beautiful Baby Tilda

You should be with us

You should be here

rainbow baby

We will never forget you Matilda Mae

We will love you and honour you always

And make you part of our every day

sids and tilda

11 thoughts on “Remembering an Angel when a Rainbow Comes

  1. What beautiful words.

    Those sculptures are so unique, not ever seen anything like that, and the sun rays through that catcher will look amazing. Such lovely ways to include Tilda in every situation. I only wish she was here with you getting excited with E and W about their baby sister arriving. xx

  2. Beautiful ideas and totally understand where you are coming from I felt totally the same when having Boo.
    I took him to Rhianna’s grave soon after he was born it was brilliant sunshine, and then we got drenched with a freak shower and I drove out of the graveyard chasing a massive rainbow, I knew then that eveything was ok. It was my sign, my way of knowing and it was fine.
    Some of our gorgeous friends included Rhianna’s name in Boo’s cards they are ones I will cherish forever xxxx

  3. Jennie, Matilda Mae will never be forgotten and I think all of those ideas are beautiful. She will certainly be remembered and I know that one day rainbow baby too will know just how special she is x x x x

  4. That is absolutely beautiful. All of thoes ideas are so gorgeous and special. With all of your wonderful signs to Matilda Mae, what a glorious home your little Rainbow is going to arrive to. Keep playing with the stars little Matilda xxxxx

  5. I am always amazed at how creative and amazing you are at finding special ways to physically include and remember Tilda ( I know you always do in your heart). I really hope that no-one ever hints at or suggests that it is all ok now because you have a new baby. Of course it isn’t. The new baby will no more replace Tilda than she will replace Esther or William! My heart breaks for you, it really does, because it just so so wrong that Tilda is not with you here on earth, a cheeky, exasperating, wonderful two-year old. I know there will be so much pain, so much anger and so much grief that she is not here to welcome her little sister, but you are finding ways forward in this new ‘normal’ and are truly an amazing, brave and gracious lady. xx

  6. So many beautiful ways to welcome your Rainbow Baby and remember and keep your beautiful Angel Baby at the heart of your family – you really are incredibly thoughtful and the most wonderful mummy xxx

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