I wish I had known
I wish I had been better prepared
For the destruction and devastation
Of renovating our home
I wish I had known
The intense, immense emotions
I would feel
As the walls came tumbling down
I wish I had known
How much the disruption
Would affect our family
Our relationships with one another
Our ability to cope
With day to day life
I wish I had known
How not living at home
Would hurt us
Upset us
Undo our routines
I have been foolish
Naive
And stupid
I should have known
And now it is begun
It cannot be undone
We can only go on
Can only hold on
And hope
We survive the bumpy ride
Without too many injuries
Sustained along the way
Hope that it will be worth it
And that any damages incurred
Can be repaired
Hope that we make it
To the light at the end of the tunnel
Hope that it will be worth it
Hope that we can make it
Together
Without hurting each other
Through fear
Unknowing
Anxiety
Guilt
Doubt
And all the emotions in between
I wish I had known
I wish I had been better prepared
For the destruction and devastation
Of renovating our home
I wish I had known
The intense, immense emotions
I would feel
As the walls came tumbling down
You sum up so well the emotion of not having a settled home for families. Please hold on to the fact it is a very temporary situation. Many families would be grateful for the conditions of your temporary home. I feel the same emotion I feel if I watch DIY SOS as when I read your blog at the moment. Immense excitement for a family that so deserve their new home and so need it for their journey and will do good and apprichate it because of all they have been though.. But then a sad despair for the so many in such a worse situation than the families ‘before’ home. My families who can’t do their homework because there is no room, who struggle to be school ready in the morning because there is only one room to sleep in. Who have no light at their tunnel. I wish you the best in your journey as I do with all my dear families.
X
Thank you for this comment. You are right in so many ways we are so fortunate and much of our situation is temporary. And this journey makes me think also of what life must be like for families permanently without a home and not knowing if or when their lives may change. x x x x The rollercoaster involves personal feelings and also helps to put wider situations into perspective x
Sending love and hugs! You will get through it. Be strong x
This is always the worst bit in any build, probably made harder as you have memories there too. Trust me all the hard work, cost, tears, worry, anger and dust will be worth it in the end. It will be hard, it will be messy, and it is hard to envisage the final result when everything is so up in the air. My parents had an extension when I was a teen, and it caused a lot of tension but now they wouldn’t be without their new extra space. I expect the kids are probably finding it all a bit weird and strange but will settle soon 🙂 xx
Thank you x It is made worse with the guilt I think of taking down Tilda’s house. It will be a different place once it is rebuilt. I am trying to keep her memory alive within little parts of the new bits. And her garden will be a little larger when it is all done x
It probably doesn’t feel like right now but it will all be worth it in the end. It will always be Tilda’s house even if it is tore down and rebuilt a 100 times – her memory will be always be there she will always belong with you. Stay strong lovely you will get there in end xx