Post written on the 7th October 2016

I am 40 years old

I am pregnant

9 weeks tomorrow

This will be my last pregnancy

Come what may

I hope with all my heart

That in May 2017

We will have a fourth child

In our home

To stay

But I am in no position

To believe

Assume

Dream

That this hope will ever be more

Than in my heart

This is my 6th pregnancy

Since 2010

I have 6 year old twins

And a two year old at home

A forever 9 month old baby in the sky

And my two miscarried angels

I am in no position

Sadly

To dream, believe or assume

I will just wait and see

And hope

In my heart

Very quietly

That this little Maybe

That I already love with all I am

Will one day

Be a baby in my arms

A baby that will stay