So today I am 29 weeks pregnant with Matilda Bump. Just 10 or 11 weeks now until we finally get to meet her. I feel like I have been pregnant forever. I have, of course, never been this pregnant before … Continue reading
It is official! I am going to Brit Mums Live together with my brand new baby daughter (Matilda!) and sponsored by two of the most baby centred companies I know, BundleBean and Snoozeshade. BundleBean and Snoozeshade both provide baby products … Continue reading
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Today I felt it.
I felt the snap.
I would like to say that I have controlled it but I don’t think I have.
I think maybe I can though.
I put the babies to bed at 10am and listened as I always do to their monitor as they battled against sleep.
I think Esther actually fell asleep quite quickly. William took the best part of an hour.
I sat and listened.
I was doing other things but I was also listening.
I could feel the bubbling beneath as my nerves began to fray.
Then I felt the snap and I had to stop listening.
I checked for mail.
I considered going out in the garden.
I settled for shutting myself in the bathroom, washing machine on, and vigorously cleaning my teeth.
I know I need to tell David that I need a break soon.
But he is too busy for that.
He is working this weekend.
But I will be alright.
I’ll keep us busy.
I can feel it now though.
It is like a nervous energy has taken over my body.
Has anyone else ever felt like this?
Five minutes of peace over
The boy he sleeps
But now the girl is awake
No rest time for Mummy today x
After my disappointing maternity shop on Sunday I have been thinking of other ways in which I could make the most of me. I need to set aside some time each week that is mine alone and use it to … Continue reading
Inspired by http://superamazingmum.blogspot.com/2010/11/raindrops-on-roses-and-whiskers-on.html which I read during an early morning breast feed!! I have dug out my list of favourite things that I shared with David when we met in 2007. At the end I will add on some new ‘raindrops and roses’ that have grown through knowing him.
‘These are a few of my favourite things!’
“Andy Goldsworthy is an environmental sculptor in which his use of the natural surroundings create an art form. He explores and experiments with various natural materiel such as leaves, grasses, stones, wood, sand, clay, ice, and snow. The seasons and weather determine the materials and the subject matter of his projects. With no preconceived ideas about what he will create, Goldsworthy relies on what nature will give him.”
This is one of my favourite pieces.
Kandinsky – I like abstract art
Lowry – I also like art that tells a story
Lost Gardens of Heligan – Cornwall
Have you ever been here? It is wonderful. Has a real sense of magic.
Gyllyngvase Beach, near Falmouth, Cornwall
Kynance Cove, The Lizard, Cornwall
Hidden away from all the world!
The view from the top of Gummers How, near Windermere
On a clear day you can see the sea far far in the distance
Camber Sands, especially when it is empty and when it is winter.
Window seats in old houses. Where you can curl up with a good book and watch the world go by at the same time. Watch raindrops as they race down the panes.
Warming up by a roaring open fire – toasting marshmallows
Holidays by the sea
Campfires on the beach
Sleeping under the stars, beneath the night sky
Camping, walking, climbing, cycling and swimming. Reading and writing, teaching and learning. Going to the theatre, acting, singing, listening to music.
I have always been an avid reader. Starting with Enid Blyton and The Folk of the Faraway Tree, moving on to The Famous Five, The Dark is Rising Sequence by Susan Cooper, The Hobbit. I love Jane Austen, Thomas Hardy and other classic literature. I love The Secret Garden. I love 1984 by George Orwell and The Handmaid’s Tale by Margaret Atwood. I studied and compared these two books for an extended study as part of my literature A Level and have loved them ever since. I love The Lord of the Rings and Harry Potter. I love Lord of the Flies. Catcher in the Rye by JD Salinger. I love The Silver Sword by Ian Serrailer, I Am David by Anne Holme and Children of the Oregon Trail. Books I can read over and over again! I will read just about anything to be fair.
Though I have not written much outside of school and university for a few years now. I have written and enjoy writing stories, poems and plays. The first play I ever wrote was called The Happy Scarecrow when I was 8 years old. I directed and performed in it in a school assembly. My friends and I used to write shows and perform them in my garden all the time when we were younger. Poetry I wrote was pretty intense as a teenager. I went on holiday to Scottish highlands with my parents when I was about 15 and write some pretty moody stuff. I have not felt much like writing for years, until I met you, and now I feel inspired again. Thank you. I have had some educational articles published and some of my work from uni, I have also had some poetry published when I was younger. I will always try to keep a diary. I want to be able to look back on what we have when I am old and remember how wonderful and magical it was to find you (David).
ACTING AND DIRECTING
I have always been into the theatre. First started acting when I was 6. Started with small parts but always speaking roles and then as I got older I always got the lead roles in school productions and at the various drama clubs I belonged to. Got some really good reviews for my acting and for the productions that I directed. The last two Christmases I have produced and directed the school Christmas show (with Debbie) but it is not quite the same thing.
Parts I have played
Loads of pantomimes always either the young female lead (Snow White, Cinderella) or the Prince type person.
A review from when I was in panto – “Colin was of course played by a girl in true panto tradition. This was the delectable and talented actress Jennie Nairn who was quite outstanding. She was all that the lead panto ‘male’ should be. Striking looks, true stage presence, a magnificent smile and a marvellous set of legs which all made her perfect for the role.”
The Governor’s Wife / Rider in Bertolt Brecht’s The Caucasian Chalk Circle
Sara Bond in Wolfsbane
“Pivotal to the whole play was the part of Sara Bond, played by Jennie Nairn. It is difficult to believe that one so young (20) could have such a mature acting ability. She had terrific stage presence and built up Sara’s character with subtlety and guile. Jennie is a handsome girl with a clear and powerful voice and was a joy to watch. Her powerful scene with Gran was a highlight. Her domination and mood changes, threats and ridiculing of the old lady had the audience on the edge of their seats. It was marvellous stuff. She never hesitated once, such was her command of her part, and at the end I was an ardent fan full of admiration. There have been some fine perfomances at CATs but Jennie Nairn’s was amongst the best that I have seen.”
Antigone in Antigone
Mrs Frank in The Diary of Anne Frank
Karin Rust in Albert
Dulcie in The Boyfriend
Audrey in The Little Shop of Horrors
Alice in The Killing of Sister George
Plays I have directed
Doggies by Jean McConnell
Love Stinks by Sue Herscombe and Pete Scott
“Amateur dramatics often gets stuck in a rut. Give the younger generation a chance to show its talents and this refreshing pair of duologues is the result. The young CATS were led by the hardworking Jennie Nairn (me) who directed without unnecessary frills,, allowing us to concentrate on the well-written texts … We look forward to more work from this combination of young talent.”
All of the above are my favourite things from 2007, now in 2011 I would add
David, my children and all the wonderful things they do, teaching, directing children’s drama, blogging, taking photographs, Ullswater!!, Devon, Durdle Door, snow days with igloos, animation, The West Wing, Spooks, Twilight, planning our wedding and so much more …
Think I will post more about this soon.
Thank you for the inspiration x
I have decided to make my To Do list public to motivate (or shame) myself into getting it done.
The timetable for this list is the month of January!
Things I would like to do before the end of January
1. Encourage William to take a bottle so that I can have some baby free time and to allow David to be more involved with feeding. Esther guzzles a bottle down but so far William has resisted. My attitude needs to change for this to work as I need to accept that them having a bottle of expressed breast milk is just as good as or nearly as good as straight from the mothership! This is definitely a number one priority on my list as it will allow me to do number 2.
2. Make some time for me. I would like to go to our local spa for a day and enjoy the pool, sauna and steam room as well as have some treatments. It costs £80 to do this but I think I am going to use my Christmas money to treat myself to this one day out and I am sure I will not take the whole day anyway, just a half day. Daddy will enjoy some quality time with his children after being away for a few days this month.
3. Read a book and not Twilight AGAIN!! During IVF, pregnancy and breastfeeding I keep rereading these books as they are so easy to read but I have a whole stack of ‘real’ books waiting to be enjoyed when I have the concentration and energy!
4. Spring clean the whole house and at the same time sort out all baby belongings to ensure have useful baby stations in each room to allow for further cleaning and sorting – e.g. bouncy chairs in bedroom, tummy time mat and toys in bathroom, swing in kitchen etc … We have so much stuff that could be made much better use of to allow me to be busy around the house rather than confined to one room
5. Get dressed everyday and go outside every day with or without babies.
6. Start and sustain healthy eating plan
7. Start working towards going out for a night with David while his parents babysit – I am setting my sights on March for this happening. We are going to get really dressed up and go out for a posh dinner with lots of wine!
So much to do but all such positive things that will make life better for me and so for everyone around me as I can be such a grump!
2011 is going to be a great year and this list is the start.
I will keep you updated as to how I get on x