And so here we are
2017
Before I look forward to the year ahead
I want to look back on 2016
And say a proper goodbye to the year
A year that has passed so quickly
A year that has held a whole lot of heart ache and pain
But some big positives too
It has definitely been a year
Even if it did seem to pass in a minute
Particularly from May to December
2016 just went so fast
Here are some of the things
That I will remember from 2016
Returning to teaching too soon
In September 2015 I returned to teaching
And in January 2016 I resigned
Realising I was not ready to return to the classroom
I missed my family time too much
But I have absolutely no regrets
I know that I made the right decision
For me and for my family
And there is no way now that I will return to school
Until all my own children
Are in full time education
Whenever that may be
See below …
Starting our Home Education adventure
So at the end of the Spring term
I left school
And Esther and William left with me
We began our Home Education adventure
Something we had been thinking about
For a long time
We have not looked back
Our days are slow but full
We are learning so much in so many ways
Together
It has freed up time for the children to do other things
Drama, dance, gymnastics
Beavers
Forest School, pony club
And so much more
I do not think that we will home school forever
But at the moment it is definitely what is right for us
Losing our Maybe Baby
In June 2016
We lost a baby
Again
This time a natural miscarriage
At home
At 7 weeks gestation
An early loss yes
But heartbreaking all the same
This loss confirmed to David and I
What in our hearts we already knew
That we wanted another baby
A sibling for our children
A sidekick for Rainbow Baby Bea
Falling for our Sprinkle of Stardust
In September I found out that I was pregnant again
With a May Baby
A baby girl
Our Sprinkle of Stardust
Due in May 2017
I will be 22 weeks pregnant on Tuesday
And I am still forgetting some days that I am pregnant at all
But I am
And all being well
Our fifth baby will arrive safely in May
And we will be able to bring her home
Making our house our home
A year ago we started planning our house renovation
7 months ago we moved out of our house
We thought we were moving out for about 3 months
It ended up being over 5
Those months were hard and stressful
They took their toll on all of us
Individually and as a family unit
But all of that is forgotten
Now that we are home
Now that we are back into our newly renovated house
And though there is still much work to be done
To complete the improvements
I can definitely say
There is no place like home
And I am excited for living here
In 2017
Being back in the driving seat
One positive that came from the months of misery
In our temporary accommodation
Is that I am driving again
Since Tilda died I had not really been driving my car
Linked in with my severe anxiety and PTSD
Is a real fear of driving
A fear I have managed to conquer this year
Something I am very proud of
And we are all enjoying the freedom
Me being back on the road brings
I am driving forward
Turning 40
In September it was my 40th birthday
I am now 40 years old
I am a 40 year old
Home educating mummy
With baby number five on the way
Not sure I ever had this vision of me
When I was the younger version of me
But here I am
With my amazing superhero of a husband
And our beautiful children
If Matilda Mae were with us
Life would be pretty perfect I’d say
Turning 40 was good
I have spent quality time with family and friends
And I still have a special party to come
In 2017
Celebrating my 40th and more importantly
What should be Tilda’s 5th birthday
Our baby girl should be five this year
Matilda Mae
She has been with us through the whole year
As she will always be
Our baby in the sky
Our star of the sea
Missing her threads through everything we are
And everything that we do
I feel like I have not done enough in 2016
To honour and remember our daughter
In 2017 I will do better
Matilda Mae is shining bright already this new year
I know that she is with us
So another year is over
Another 12 months have passed
I wonder what the next 12 months will hold
For all of us?
But before looking forward
One final look back
At the year that was 2016
Jennie – a lovely summary of an eventful year!
All the best to you and your family for the year ahead. We hope that it is a happy and healthy one for you all
Brush-Baby
Thank you x Happy New Year to you. I owe you an email!