On the 2nd February 2013 my daughter aged 9 months fell asleep and did not wake up. She died of SIDS. Sudden Infant Death Syndrome. I did not know it was possible for an older baby to die in this … Continue reading
On the 2nd February 2013 my daughter aged 9 months fell asleep and did not wake up. She died of SIDS. Sudden Infant Death Syndrome. I did not know it was possible for an older baby to die in this … Continue reading
I am starting to think a lot about my appearance. Becoming a mummy and being about to enter my late thirties (eeek) has dented my body confidence and also my sense of fashion. It is not that I particularly care … Continue reading
A bereaved mother finding a new sense of normal Is rather like a toddler learning to ride a bike They are keen, they want to do it But they are just too scared to lift their feet from the ground. … Continue reading
At the moment I am trying to organise a barn dance for Baby Tilda. In her memory I would like to bring families together to dance and make merry on the day when she will have been dead for 9 … Continue reading
People who read my blog often ask where Esther and William’s clothes come from, and their shoes.
I have decided to write some posts about the brands they wear and why.
I am starting with me&i.
I first discovered me&i at The Baby Show in February 2012 whilst pregnant with Matilda Bump and then again in October 2012 where I introduced Matilda Mae to the team. I bought clothes for Esther and William from their stall both times.
The one frustrating thing about this brand is that you cannot buy their clothes online!
And it is frustrating because their clothes are so good.
Well made and with the funkiest of fun designs for babies, toddlers and older children.
They are great clothes for twins and siblings because the colours can be matched to complement or contrast and the many fabulous motifs spread through a range of boys and girls clothing items.
Whenever Esther and William wear me&i clothes I am always asked where they came from.
Perhaps I should consider holding a me&i party?
That is the best way to buy from this fabulous brand, attending a party.
I only wish they did online ones!!
Here are Esther and William looking really rather special in their me&i clothes.
me&i did not ask me to write this post. They sent Esther and William each a gift shortly after Tilda died and I have chosen to share with you how much we love their clothes.
Last year I posted about what fun we all had with ramps and bridges. As time went on the cardboard ramp became rather battered and we needed a replacement. We tried a large wrapping paper roll for a while and … Continue reading
Today I tried to go to a wedding My husband is good friend’s with the Groom He wanted to go to support him He came to our wedding and to Tilda’s funeral It felt like the right thing to do. … Continue reading
Since yesterday I have felt numb I have made it through the day without a tear And now I am broken It is too hard without you here Nothing feels right anymore I don’t know how to fix things The … Continue reading
Friday 2nd August 2013. 6 months since our baby daughter died. 6 months since we lost Matilda Mae. 6 months since the world as we knew it completely fell apart. So much has happened since Baby Tilda died. So much … Continue reading
Last year at Brit Mums Live I won a family photo shoot with Image Thirst. It was wonderful and produced photographs that have always been precious but are even more so now.
The success of this photo shoot led to us having one locally at Christmas.
All three children enjoyed the experience so much that I decided that I would use professional photo shoots to mark important milestones.
The lovely Helen from Schryver Photography in Ashford came and photographed Tilda’s walk earlier this year and I knew as soon as I met her that I wanted her to photograph Esther and William on their birthday.
And so she did.
And Esther and William loved it.
It was a lovely, exhausting, afternoon.
My aunty and uncle were with us and my very dear friend and it was a lovely social occasion.
It marked Esther and William’s third birthday and I think you will agree that Tilda is with us in every photo.
I could see her everywhere, where she should be in every shot.
Clapping bubbles.
Chasing wagons.
Giggling and playing.
Sitting in cake!
What I love about Helen is that she is so good with children. She got Esther and William involved with planning the shots and followed their lead as to where they wanted to go and what they wanted to do.
We knew that we wanted natural shots.
I loved the idea of using the retro wagons and cuddly toys.
I wanted to mix up stars and bubbles.
I wanted shots of Esther in her Matilda Mae dress.
And I wanted to try a ‘cake smash’ or as we called it ‘Messy Cake!’
It was a lovely afternoon full of love and celebration.
A visit to Baby Tilda’s garden.
And lots of bubble kisses.
Everyone took a breath as Esther and William made sure we knew that the bubbles they were blowing were all for Baby Tilda in the sky.
Each and every picture has captured their personalities as they change from toddlers to preschoolers in turning three.
Three!
If you live in Kent and are looking for a photographer, I cannot recommend Helen enough.
She is awesome!
Thank you Schryver Photography for a memorable marking of a milestone we will never ever forget.
Thank you x
Just so there is no confusion I paid for the photo shoot and have ordered a photograph package from Schryver Photography. This is not a review and I have not been asked to write this post. I am just so proud of these beautiful portraits of my children. All of them x