I did not choose this anger
I did not choose this hurt
I did not choose this hatred
I did not choose this guilt
I did not choose this fear
I did not choose this terror
I did not choose this anxiety
I did not choose this panic
I did not choose this sadness
I did not choose this depression
I did not choose this loneliness
I did not choose this lack of understanding
I did not choose this confusion
I did not choose this emptiness
I did not choose this shock
I did not choose this regret
I did not choose these irrational thoughts
I did not choose these flashbacks
I did not choose this lacking
I did not choose this feeling
I did not choose this numbness
I did not choose these contradictions
I did not choose this pain
I did not choose these tears
I did not choose this nightmare
I did not choose this fatigue
I did not choose this exhaustion
I did not choose this despair
I did not choose this burden
I did not choose this grief
I did not choose this emotion
I did not choose these feelings

I did not choose this
I cannot control this
I cannot change this

I did not choose, I cannot control or change the fact that my baby died.

Matilda Mae is dead!