My midwife tells me

That because of my history

And because of my age

I will not be allowed to go over due with this pregnancy

Which means that 15 weeks on Tuesday

All being well

Our little lady will be here

Our Sprinkle of Stardust will be born

And our family will be complete

Sprinkle is our second rainbow baby

Bea was our first

Losing Matilda Mae made me thoroughly research safe sleep products

And obsess about how and where our rainbow would sleep

A number of lovely companies agreed to work with me

And sent me products to test and review

Without meaning to I let them down

Because though I had done the research

Chosen the safest products I could

What I could not do

Was put my baby down

In fact Bea did not sleep anywhere

For over two years

Apart from on me and in my arms

She had a few minutes in her Shnuggle

A few naps in her Snuzpod

She dozed in the Toddle Pod

But it was never for long

And I did not have it in me

To allow her to have her own sleeping space

I think it has probably been good for Bea

I fed her for almost two and a half years

And she slept with me all of that time

I think it has given us a very close bond

But it has not really been fair on my husband

Or my other older children

Who have not had as much of my time as they should

So this time I have promised myself

And my family

That I will let this baby sleep

That I WILL put this baby down

So that I can have a more healthy relationship with sleep

And with all of my family

If I miss another two years of Esther and William’s bedtimes

They will be almost nine and I do not want to lose all of that time

And so I am going to spend a few weeks researching again

I am going to carefully choose the products

That I am confident with enable Sprinkle to sleep safely

That will give me peace of mind

And that will help us all enjoy our new baby as a family

Esther is so excited about having a baby sister

She is very keen to be involved with bath time

And read the baby stories

And push her in a pram

And I want to encourage that

Because I know that it will mean so much to her

She is already such a wonderful big sister

To William and Bea

My plan over the coming weeks is to blog about the safe sleep products that I find

To talk about why I like them and what it is about them that supports safe sleep

At The Baby Show in March I am going to be seeking out products that enable safe sleep

And I am hoping to do some vlogging from the show

My plan at the moment for Sprinkle

Is to use Bea’s SnuzPod again beside our bed

You can read my full review of the SnuzPod here

And watch my video too

I also want to convince David that we NEED a Shnuggle Dreami downstairs

So that she can nap where I can see her during the day

I know that I will want to keep baby close

And the Dreami is perfect for that

It is light and can be moved around the home

The Dreami bed can be used as a rocker

At floor level it can be rocked with your feet

While you are reading to older children

Or eating dinner

On the stand the baby is obviously higher up

Off the floor

Away from boisterous older children

I love that the stand folds easily

So that it can be stored when not in use

And easily transported for holidays

And afternoons at Granny’s

This is a clever baby sleep system

That has been really thought about

You can read more details about The Shnuggle Dreami

On the Shnuggle website

I am not promising that there will not be times

When my very last baby will sleep in my arms

I am so looking forward to making the most of those snuggles and cuddles

But I do promise

That though I will be scared

Terrified of losing her

I will lay my baby down to sleep

And I will make sure that I am more rational

About how I am with her

And more fair with dividing my time between all of our children

And my husband!

I am going to write a post listing my safe sleep top buys

And the things already on my radar for The Baby Show at Excel

I hope that you will read them

And find them useful

With Tilda’s anniversary less than two weeks away

I want to spend some time raising awareness in her name

While also getting ready for her sibling

Just as we tried with Bea before her (SIDS and The New Baby)

NB: The products we were sent and did not use with Bea were given to families in need in our local area