Last month I turned 40 40! I think I am still in denial That I can possibly be that old So far, 40 is fine I feel no different than I did at 39 I was not facing 40 with … Continue reading →

When you lose a baby The loss is enormous As time goes by You realise the enormity Of all you have lost When Baby Tilda died Our Matilda Mae I did not just lose my 9 month old baby I … Continue reading →

So today I am exhausted before the day has even begun After a restless night worrying about my telephone assessment for counselling The call was this morning at 8.45am I drove out in my car to find somewhere I could … Continue reading →

Sometimes something so magical happens That you just know that your children Are going to remember it for the rest of their lives On Tuesday night my children had the fright of their lives Some early Halloween fun With a … Continue reading →

Tomorrow my counselling begins Just a phone assessment to start But it cannot come too soon I feel like I am under a very dark cloud at the moment Engulfed in a fog I cannot see through Breathing feels hard … Continue reading →

When you fall pregnant Especially for the very first time You assume Perhaps naively That you will be pregnant for 9 months Perhaps a little less with twins What you do not expect Is to fall ill at 25 weeks … Continue reading →

I met David in May 2007 Right from the start We knew we wanted to be together forever We knew that we wanted to have children We were so happy And so in love Our future was open wide We … Continue reading →

1 in 4 pregnancies end in miscarriage 1 in 4 Every one of us knows someone who has lost a baby Often they will not tell you They will not tell anyone Sometimes they will not know themselves As the … Continue reading →

How do you love a person who never got to be? Or try to envision a face you never got to see? How do you mourn the death of one who never got to live? When there’s nothing to feel … Continue reading →

And so my misgivings were right And during the 7th week of this pregnancy We lost our Maybe Baby My second miscarriage within three years I wanted to share our story This week To raise awareness To break the silence … Continue reading →