Please Spare a Prayer

Dear Mummies Everywhere

Hold your children close tonight. I am writing this with Matilda in my arms, fear in my heart and tears in my eyes.

I am writing this with hope. We must always have hope.

I cannot believe that I am asking Edspire readers to pray once again for my dear friend, Ruth.

Mummy to two beautiful boys and two baby girl angels her brand new baby daughter is now fighting for her life.

Martha Mae Grace born at 25 weeks needs your hopes, thoughts and prayers this night.

Life is so cruel and so many precious babies are snatched from their mothers’ arms.

Please take a moment today to think of Martha Mae.

I know her Mummy will need all the help she can to find the strength she needs to face this battle again.

Dear God,
This time please let Ruth take her daughter home.
Make Martha Mae strong, embrace this beautiful baby and let her family do the same. Let them live together and love together as every family should. Please watch over Martha Mae with her angel sisters, Isla and Eden. Give the family the courage and strength they need to fight the fight and face the world together.
Amen

Please spare a prayer for Martha Mae tonight.

Back on the Sidelines

After a wonderful but exhausting time at Brit Mums Live 2012 I am back at home on the sidelines of my family.

How is it possible to feel like an outsider looking in at my own family? But that is exactly how I feel.

Matilda Mae was so beautifully behaved at Brit Mums. Now we are home and she is refusing to feed and sleep meaning I cannot be with Esther and William.

And if I did try I am sure they would just ask for Daddy!

How has it come to this?

Through a combination of late pregnancy, illness and nursing a newborn I seem to be playing less and less of a role in our family life and it is breaking my heart.

Has anyone else ever felt like this?

I feel like I am missing out on so much.

At Brit Mums I had Matilda in her Baby Bjorn all day which I am happy to do at home as long as I get to have a shower first and that has not been a possibilty today. Nor has breakfast!

Where has my self confidence gone?

I need to make a plan.

I want my Mummy mojo back.