I too hate the 2nd of the month. My son died on the 2nd. I hate Thursdays, he died on a Thursday.
The way you have described your grief, your ‘new’ life is exactly how I feel but couldn’t describe. 4 ‘old’ ‘close’ friends I no longer hear from and now if I did I would tell them where to go. My birthday was June, I didn’t recognise it and told others it did not exist. Christmas ….. I already dread. Jamie was 22, qualified as an Aeronautics Technician on THAT day; how cruel. He was happy, qualified, being headhunted, had booked his first holiday alone….. And it was gone. 2minutes after he zoomed away from the house on his motorbike he was gone.
People say things like ‘I know how you feel, I lost my mum/dad/grandma/grandad’….. NO… NO you don’t. You don’t because THEY are meant to go first. THAT is how its meant to be. THAT IS the right order of things.
I too hate the 2nd of the month. My son died on the 2nd. I hate Thursdays, he died on a Thursday.
The way you have described your grief, your ‘new’ life is exactly how I feel but couldn’t describe. 4 ‘old’ ‘close’ friends I no longer hear from and now if I did I would tell them where to go. My birthday was June, I didn’t recognise it and told others it did not exist. Christmas ….. I already dread. Jamie was 22, qualified as an Aeronautics Technician on THAT day; how cruel. He was happy, qualified, being headhunted, had booked his first holiday alone….. And it was gone. 2minutes after he zoomed away from the house on his motorbike he was gone.
People say things like ‘I know how you feel, I lost my mum/dad/grandma/grandad’….. NO… NO you don’t. You don’t because THEY are meant to go first. THAT is how its meant to be. THAT IS the right order of things.
I’m not the same. I miss him so much.