Baby Tilda died in February Sudden Infant Death Tore our family apart So many people have helped me Since Matilda died So many people have stuck by me And their being there has helped me more than they know The … Continue reading →

There are only 4 sleeps left in 2013 2013 The absolute worst year of my life Learning to live after the death of a baby Learning to live after the death of our baby My baby Our beautiful daughter Matilda … Continue reading →

On Christmas Eve we busied ourselves with building shops, train tracks and dolls houses We finished off and organised We kept busy, busy, busy Until we went to bed Well, to sleep, on our mattress on the lounge floor Our … Continue reading →

She could not be with us this Christmas She is almost 11 months dead We could not kiss her this Christmas So we blew giant bubbles instead We drove our car Right up the hill Climbed the stiles And walked … Continue reading →

This week has been a week of excited exploration for Esther and William as they were given their very first Track Master Thomas Set by Fisher Price. Esther, and William in particular, are obsessed with Thomas the Tank Engine. They … Continue reading →

Earlier this year One week before Baby Tilda died We were invited to visit and review Build A Bear We went to our local store in Maidstone And had the most magical time I have never sat down and written … Continue reading →

Esther and William are at an age when they are starting to enjoy the idea of a little independence. They like to carry their lunch box in to school, they love to carry anything that they buy at the shops, … Continue reading →

This year Christmas is hitting hard. Nothing can be the same. Not when a baby has died. Everything is different. It has to be. For my sanity. Nothing can be the same. Last year Tilda loved the tree. People tell … Continue reading →

We have been enjoying some lovely books about Babar The Elephant. Do you know Babar? Babar The Elephant lives in the jungle as a young elephant. Until one day a hunter shoots and kills his mother. Very frightened Babar runs … Continue reading →

At the moment William is desperate to learn all he can about numbers. It started with Thomas, of course, but now he is reading numbers wherever he goes. Car number plates, phone numbers, breakfast cereal packaging, page numbers in books. … Continue reading →