Beautiful beautiful Baby Tilda
She only learned to crawl the day that she died
She never walked
She never had a need for shoes
All girls love shoes
She just didn’t ever need them
Today Esther and I were sorting through shoes
We found her beautiful Pio Pio shoes from Livie and Luca
The shoes Esther was given for Tilda’s Goodbye
Esther was desperate to wear them when she found them
But alas they are now too small
I asked her what we should do with them
She suggested giving them to Baby Digby
The son of my very dear friend
I explained that they were really shoes for a little girl
Esther looked at me and simply said
We should give them to Baby Tilda
She can wear these shoes in the sky
The birds have wings so they can fly in the sky
My heart melted
With sadness and adoration
My beautiful daughter
Thinking so lovingly of her baby sister in the sky
If only we could do just that
Send her shoes to the sky
If only we did not need to
Such beautiful shoes should be handed down
They are of course Baby Tilda’s shoes
She should be walking among us right now
Wearing her big sister’s beautiful Pio Pio shoes
She should have a need for these shoes!
Esther is such a sweet and thoughtful little girl to say such a beautiful thing. My heart breaks afresh for you Jenny. Much love to you all. Have been thinking about you a lot over Christmas. xxx
Such a gentle, empathic little girl – what a amazing job you are doing as a mummy. She is learning through you to remember her baby sister in the sky. It is so truly unfair and cruel that at 3 years old she has even to think about her baby sister she has lost. I am so truly sorry Jennie. Your story has changed me so much and this Christmas I was so grateful for everything I had because I thought of all you have lost. You have lost so much and you still carry on each day with a broken heart for the two little ones you have in your arms. You were born to be a mummy and I wish with all my heart a rainbow baby finds its way to you soon. I know it will never ease the pain of losing precious Matilda Mae but another baby deserves so much to have you as their mummy. I think of you so much. Hugs from afar xx
a beautiful post, as always brings tears to my eyes, but I smile too at what a beautiful thoughtful child Esther is.
Girls and shoes so go together, those are truly stunning little shoes too.
Such a wonderfully thoughtful big sister. Heartbreaking, but beautiful to hear. Thinking of you xx
Yes, she should.. x
gone but never forgotten, its these small reminders that in their own way are precious, that Esther remembers and thinks of Matilda, but so painful that you have to this way.
Esther is a beautiful bright and sensitive girl.
What a beautiful and bright little girl Esther is! My heart goes out to you, Jenny. I think of you so often; I admire your bravery and grace and how you carry on through these incredibly tough and cruel times. Lots of love, Deborah xx
What a lovely and thoughtful big sister. Thinking of you Jennie as always. There’s not a day that goes past that I don’t think of you. x
This brought a tear to my eyes, she is such a caring and thoughtful little girl x