Dear Maybe Baby

So this is our fifth week together

Though really it is our third

Fifth week of pregnancy

Third since conception

So the due date calculators say

I am aching all over

In particular my limbs

And lower back

I think it is the Relaxin

Combined with lifting Bea

Supporting her heavy head when she feeds

As well as loading and unloading

Everyone and everything from the car

Time to take it easier I think

If you are going to stick around

Muscle ache is definitely my main symptom

That and needing to pee more

And finding poo tricky!

I need to eat more fresh fruits and vegetables

I have started today

And I need to drink more water too

So exciting

So much is happening to us already

You are now an embryo

The size of a poppy seed

You are dividing into three layers

That will later form organs and tissues

It is funny thinking back

That we saw Esther and William at this stage of their development

They were 5 week old embryos when they were artificially inserted into my womb

So I have an idea of how you are

Burrowing I hope into the lining of my uterus

Snuggling up tight and safe

Snuggling in to stay

By the end of this week

All being well

My placenta will be working

Making nutrients for you

And taking away waste

Human beings are amazing creatures

New life is a magical and precious thing

You are part of me now

And I love you already

I always will

Even if you are only ever a maybe

I love you Maybe Baby

Grow strong