When you have seen a baby dead in a cot It is hard to put another baby in one When you have seen your daughter dead in her cot It is hard to put another of your daughters in one … Continue reading →

This summer is our last complete summer together After this year Esther and William will be at school for all of June and July This year we are having a great big #summerofplay As we #countdowntobigschool We have lots of … Continue reading →

Today I feel on the brink of a break down Teetering along on the edge of tears Two infected wisdom teeth Send pains shooting through my head and neck Nausea from yet more antibiotics Fear and frustration weigh heavy on … Continue reading →

In July 2011 my Mum and I Took almost one year olds Esther and William To London To take part in the London Buggy Push For Bliss We almost did not go Because of a buggy disaster But were saved … Continue reading →

Each year less and less people will remember Tilda’s birthday But we will never forget It is never going to be less important or significant to us Her 4th birthday will be celebrated just as much as her first Just … Continue reading →

When I was pregnant with Tilda I learned to drive I was around 20 weeks When I passed my test It was my fifth one I think And it was automatic only I would have to learn And be tested … Continue reading →

Today I have been talking to a wonderful group of ladies On Twitter and on Facebook about bereavement About baby loss And what happens when a baby dies After a baby dies As with many things in the UK It … Continue reading →

Today I am leaving Bea at home I’m having some time out On my own Bea is with David Esther and William Granny and Granddad for a time too She is in the very best of hands So why do … Continue reading →

Every year for Baby Tilda’s birthday we go to Coombe Mill Farm I booked our first trip there For Tilda’s first birthday On Christmas Day 2012 I had no idea that Tilda would not make it alive That she would … Continue reading →