We could have done more to encourage Tilda to sleep on her back. She slept better on her front and it was easier to soothe her that way. She loved us patting her back or rubbing her rump. We could … Continue reading →

I was going to call this post ‘Putting Normal on Hold’ but Hippomoos and Duckodiles sounds much more fun. We did have fun today. We had to put normal on hold because of the snow, an unexpected lie in and … Continue reading →

Today was supposed to be the first day of our new normal. It turned out to be not so normal after all. It would seem that my body and my mind could not locate anything close to normal. Today I … Continue reading →

Today is Mothers’ Day. I have already written a post about the day in general but I want to tell you now how our day has been. It has not been easy. At all. There have been tears. Cross words. … Continue reading →

Just a collection of memories of Matilda Mae, a baby that we came to know more of than any other: We always marvelled at her being totally undaunted by rooms full of people and being willingly passed from one adoring … Continue reading →

So tomorrow is Mothers’ Day. I am a mother. I know that I am. I will smile through the day and make it as much fun as I can. For Esther and William. Who love their mummy. Me. Who are … Continue reading →

Ever since we first moved into this house in July I have loved the front garden. I have talked before about how I want to use this space to create a memory garden for Matilda Mae. It is a very … Continue reading →

I asked David today if he thinks we will see Matilda again When we die He answered me honestly Though it was hard for me to hear He does not know He thinks that he believes that we will but … Continue reading →

I am feeling quite agitated this evening. Unsettled. Esther and William seem unsettled too. After a very rainy day in Brighton and a lot of time spent in the car on the M25 we are all a bit out of … Continue reading →