Sometimes life does not work out the way you planned
The way you hoped or dreamed
Sometimes you cannot do all you thought you might do
There are only so many hours in a day
So many minutes in each of those hours
Before Bea was born I had such plans for how things were going to be
Esther and William off to school
Me at home with just one baby
Easy!
A doddle!
All the time in the world for sorting the house
Writing blog post after blog post
But that is not how things have been
Or how things continue to be
You will notice there are a lot of reviews on my blog at the moment
I am trying really hard to clear a backlog
Some posts owed are over a year old
But I am working on them
Getting through them
Slowly
Steadily
Steadfastly
It is not that I am not trying
It is not that I am avoiding them
It is not that I have forgotten
But I will not let my baby scream while I get stuff done
I will not write when my children want me to play
I will not let my family fall apart around me because I owe a company a review
I will not risk my health to promote a product
I have said this before but here I am again
My family come first
My children come first
And yes I would have a lot more time for me if Bea slept in a cot
But if your baby had died in one would you?
I am not ready yet to put my Rainbow down
I am doing what I can
And for now that has to be enough
Did I take on too much?
Probably
Have I been irresponsible?
Possibly
Were my expectations of myself naive?
Definitely
I am a busy mummy of three
With a baby in the sky
I am doing what I can
And for now that has to be enough
That has to be enough
Well said!! Never apologise for putting your family first, sweet lady.
I can’t imagine anyone feeling disappointed by you when you write such beautiful words.
Hello lovely. You absolutely have to put your family first, and anyone who is not respectful of that is not worth your time! I think you’re doing a wonderful job of raising your beautiful rainbow baby, nurturing your gorgeous twins and honouring Matilda Mae in all that you do. You and your family are important. Pardon the expression, but quite frankly sod the reviews! Anyone who is waiting has waited this long, I think they’ll manage to wait a little longer. The work you have done and continue to do for companies is more valuable than you will ever know, even before you write your posts. I can vouch for that.
Here for you always, Ami x
I feel so sad that you have to write this post. You are doing an amazing job with your children and that is all that matters. People must remember being a mother & wife will always come first compared to a blog post. We all support you xx
You are doing your best and putting your family first!
You should not have to apologise x