The second of February It always starts and ends with tears It is such a difficult day Wanting to honour and remember our daughter But knowing that it is in fact the anniversary Of our last hours with her before … Continue reading →

Here it is The month I have been dreading Four years on from the day you died Four years on from when part of me died Four years on from the start of the darkest days, weeks, months and year … Continue reading →

Four years on Fewer stars appear on my timelines Not so many friends send messages and cards Less family join us to remember our daughter Grief is a lonely lonely journey And time is not a healer It heals others … Continue reading →

This week has been a long week David away People insistent on causing us unnecessary stress Which has led to David and I fighting And the children hearing! Tilda’s anniversary Battling headlice It just been a long and exhausting week … Continue reading →

Today I am 25+3 weeks pregnant. At this gestation with Esther and William this happened Saturday 10th July 2010. I was 25 weeks and 3 days pregnant. With twins. David had invited his Dad round to help us start preparing … Continue reading →

Esther, William and Bea are all very very excited They are going to have a baby sister! I need to find a way of managing their excitement Or the next 15 weeks are going to seem so so long I … Continue reading →

My midwife tells me That because of my history And because of my age I will not be allowed to go over due with this pregnancy Which means that 15 weeks on Tuesday All being well Our little lady will … Continue reading →

I have noticed over the last few days That I am a little breathless I am also feeling tired in the middle of the day Signs I now recognise as low hb levels Anaemia Needing iron So as I head … Continue reading →