One year ago a lady messaged me through Facebook She wanted to say sorry about Matilda and for me to know that she lived close by And that she too had a baby in the sky Baby Harry I did … Continue reading →

Today I bring you an emotional and important guest post about the NILMDTS written by Nicky Heppenstall. Nicky Heppenstall LNPS is a parent, a bereaved parent, and a photographer. She has been volunteering for NILMDTS since 2010 and believes the … Continue reading →

By the time I met the midwife I was already 10 weeks pregnant. My midwife is new to me as we moved house not long after Tilda was born. I am so pleased to say that she is lovely and … Continue reading →

For the last few weeks we have been test driving the Step2 Deluxe Canyon Road Train & Track Table from Activity Toys Direct. When we were sent this table my plan was to have it inside for a few days … Continue reading →

I did not choose this anger I did not choose this hurt I did not choose this hatred I did not choose this guilt I did not choose this fear I did not choose this terror I did not choose … Continue reading →

This week we did our messy play for this post nice and early, we did it on Wednesday and I am STILL late!! My apologies I had a very busy weekend at The Baby Show. Earlier in the week things … Continue reading →

Coombe Mill was the perfect place for us to say goodbye to 2013. It was another dreaded milestone and one that David and I found incredibly hard Saying goodbye to Tilda’s year The year that she had lived And died. … Continue reading →

In 2011 I wrote a poem for a friend who lost two daughters. Believe. I had no idea then how it would feel if I lost a daughter of my own. Now I know only too well how it feels … Continue reading →

It has been 13 months now since Matilda Mae, Baby Tilda, died. She was 9 months old and died suddenly and unexpectedly in her sleep. Next week will be one year since we held her goodbye. Here in this church. … Continue reading →

One year on And the pain is still as raw As is if you died just yesterday I cannot tell your story without crying Though I proudly shout your name I cannot bear pregnancy and baby stories Even though I … Continue reading →