In three weeks time I am heading up to London for The Baby Show I will be reporting from the show as the official blogger I will be meeting up with family and friends And I will also be shopping! … Continue reading
The Baby Show Must Sees
Monthly Archives: October 2014
Capture Your Grief: Before
The last few weeks have been really hard Esther and William starting school Leaves our house much quieter Emptier I am very grateful to have Bea keeping me busy Literally keeping my hands (arms) full all day But the emptiness … Continue reading
Capture Your Grief: Heart
Nicholas Evans, English journalist and author Listen for my footfall in your heart. I am not gone but merely walk within you. The title of this photo is ‘Broken Hearted Star’ It was taken almost one year ago On the … Continue reading
Fairy Week: Fairy Food Fun
First of all I must start by saying that Fairy Week has morphed into Fairy Fortnight Esther and William are enjoying it so much and also with our focus on getting through a first ever full time week at school … Continue reading
Capture Your Grief: Sunrise
We associate Tilda with the night sky
Tilda is a star now, Esther and William will say
She has gone to play with the stars
Whenever the sky is pink and purple
It is known by so many
As a Tilda Sky
Pink and purple are her colours
The sky is her domain
Perhaps it is because I am not a morning person
That I do not associate the sunrise with her
I associate the sunrise with Baby Harry
The angel baby of a very dear friend
One of the saddest stories and bravest mummies I know
Melissa has held my hand since Tilda died
She, like so many others
Is further ahead of me on the path of grief
And though she still finds life hard
She has also found some peace
And is trying to help me find mine
She understands the pain I experience every day
Every single day
Each time the sun comes up
One child too few gets up out of bed
One child too few eats breakfast
One too few sets of teeth to clean
One child too few on the school run
The emptiness of my home and heart
When Esther and William are at school
The bittersweet warmth of rainbow baby cuddles
Knowing that longing for a baby
Is as much longing for the one that can never come back
As longing for a baby brand new
Knowing that days after the special days are hard
Knowing the lead up can be littered with stabs to the heart
Understanding why Christmas and birthdays are hard
Knowing that tiny little things can make such a big difference to a day
Knowing what to say
Realising when not to say anything at all
Tilda brought many special and amazing people into my life
Some with stories that will break your heart
Melissa is a beautiful soul
A dear friend who cares for our family as much as I have fallen in love with hers
And every morning when the sun comes up
As the sun rises in the sky
As I remember that Tilda is still not here
And never can be again
I take one minute and I close my eyes
And I pray for Melissa and our babies in the sky
And thinking of him and his mummy
I whisper,
Good Morning Harrison
Here comes the sun!
Harrison’s Sunrise from The Day That