I have known about positive psychology for a few years now
Our friend, David’s school friend, told us about it some time ago
Before Tilda died
I tried to welcome a little happiness into my life in 2014
It did not work
It was too soon
I was not ready
But I am ready now
Perhaps more importantly I am ready to be ready
I want to try
I know that not every day will be a good day
Far from it
But I want to try really hard to see the good
In even our darkest days
I want to #embracehappy in 2015
This new year I am determined to do better
To be better
To be the best me that I can be
I need to do some simple things
Little things that have the potential to make a huge difference
To me
And my family
I need to not be afraid to drive my car
I need to not be afraid of getting out and about
I need to do some exercise and lose some weight
I need to have my wisdom teeth taken out
I need to not be afraid to have fun with my children
I need to be happier with who I am
I need to be more confident with what I can do
I need to start living again
At the moment when I have an idea
To go somewhere
Do something
See someone
Before I have chance to do it
I talk myself out of it
More often than not
I am home alone
Doing not a lot
I want that to change
I want to find a routine for Bea and me
I want to spend more quality time with Esther and William
I want to get more involved with our community and school
I want to take some pride in my appearance
I want to use my brain!
I want to start reading books again
I want to write
Really write!
I am ready to be supported and support others
In the pursuit of happiness
Such as it can be for someone like me
Someone not quite whole
Someone with part of her heart missing
I want to #embracehappy
For my family and for me
And so I am joining the movement
Inspired by Karin Joyce
A lady I am honoured to count as a friend
Inspired by Karin and her #embracehappy group
Today I started to declutter my cupboards, my house, my life
And tonight I am trying to come up with a word
My word for 2015
Just thinking about the word has been good for me
David and I have been talking about it
About me
About us
What we want, need
And how to go about it
I want to live
I need to fight
To get up and go places
Oh the places we could go!
But what is my word to be?
I cannot choose between three
And I would love for you to help me
Live
Fight
Go
What should my word for 2015 be?
And what word would you choose for you?
Get up and go Jennie. By doing this you will be living and fighting.
My word would be go. I wish you well and more happiness and strength in 2015.
Love
Faye x
Live Jennie. Live is it completely.
I’m here for you every step of the way. Any time.
Yes lovely, LIVE!
Karin xx
How about “embrace”? Embrace Esther, William, Bea and David. Embrace Tilda’s memory. Embrace your grief and your determination to be happier. Embrace your life and yourself. I know that’s just copying the whole #embracehappy thing, but it’s an all encompassing word. Xx
Live, Jenny.xx
I was also thinking Embrace! When I read the choices I instantly thought LIVE is the one for you xxxx
Jenni I am so happy to read this. The word that strikes me is live. The other day my heart was bursting as I read your post of 20th dec and in that you made a choice to live again, for you to be alive. You have an exciting year ahead. May God bless you. Mich x
I think FIGHT! Fight to live a life that makes you proud of yourself, gives you back some self-belief and helps you to spend quality time with your husband and children.
I once read that you should be presence in the moment with your children and I try to remember that when I do anything with my children. I stop, take a breath and be present. That helps me to focus and be mindful of being there present in the moment. Have you ever read anything about mindfulness? I think this May help you with your grief and with trying to organise the thoughts in your head and prioritising what needs to be done in your house and organising. Hope this helps. Be gentle on yourself, Fiona xx
Live!
Hello Jenni!
You have done well to get so far in your thinking about a word. I’m still struggling. I don’t like fight even though I know what you mean. It is a word of energy but it can be a negative force. I love live because you can do that every day.
Looking forward to meeting up on #embracehappy!
I love the idea of go. . You have been living and fighting, now go!
I think of you so often, and i do not know you…
i recently read of a woman in San Francisco who lost her child in a car accident, she is on instagram @babyboybakery I feel you would do well to read her posts or her blog. She is coping, at least publicly, in such a positiveway Perhaps you’d relate to her fighting and living, and see how others have taken the steps to be positive, Just as you’ve made your own resolve.
You are the bravest woman to conquer each day, i have admiration for you each day.
Best of luck with your positive changes Jennie. I’ll be reading along with you.
Live, Jenny. It has to be ‘Live’
#EmbraceHappy x
I think Live, too – it encapsulates both the other words and your newfound desire to try and embrace happiness. I wish you all the best in succeeding in finding happiness in 2015 and beyond.
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