According to my Google calendar Today is the day Today is the day that Toddler Tilda would have started preschool The plan was for her to go to the same preschool that Esther and William went to And for a … Continue reading →

This year we had a wonderful Christmas Eve It is definitely my favourite day of the holidays I love the magic The building of the anticipation The excitement The preparation We had planned to spend the day with very dear … Continue reading →

At the beginning of December we started our Christmas celebrations With a long promised return to Thomas Land at Drayton Manor My sister and her family live in the Peak District So we met her there and had a wonderful … Continue reading →

I am not sleeping very well I keep having nightmares I keep dreaming that Bea has died When I wake up and look at her I panic and think her face is all distorted Puffed up and blue I know … Continue reading →

This year I am taking part in a photography project that I have started two or three times before Project 365 or Photo 365 I am trying to document our year by taking at least one photo a day One … Continue reading →

I have not been writing that much over the festive season I have not been on social media I have enjoyed it The quiet Getting engrossed in television Doodling in a notebook Talking to my husband I do not want … Continue reading →

Today I have been thinking about hope and what hope means to me In all but the very darkest of hours I have had hope I have believed that things must get better Never as good as they could and … Continue reading →

I have known about positive psychology for a few years now Our friend, David’s school friend, told us about it some time ago Before Tilda died I tried to welcome a little happiness into my life in 2014 It did … Continue reading →

Christmas 2014 Our second without Matilda Mae Our first with Baby Bea Love and memories wrapped in stars Love and hope in rainbows Last year I wanted everything to be different Completely changed from how things were when Tilda was … Continue reading →

And so it is over for another year This has definitely been Esther and William’s best Christmas so far They totally and utterly believe in the magic of the season And it is wonderful! Our Christmas was very simple A … Continue reading →