So tomorrow is Mothers’ Day. I am a mother. I know that I am. I will smile through the day and make it as much fun as I can. For Esther and William. Who love their mummy. Me. Who are … Continue reading →

Ever since we first moved into this house in July I have loved the front garden. I have talked before about how I want to use this space to create a memory garden for Matilda Mae. It is a very … Continue reading →

I asked David today if he thinks we will see Matilda again When we die He answered me honestly Though it was hard for me to hear He does not know He thinks that he believes that we will but … Continue reading →

I am feeling quite agitated this evening. Unsettled. Esther and William seem unsettled too. After a very rainy day in Brighton and a lot of time spent in the car on the M25 we are all a bit out of … Continue reading →

Today as I walked into the church it felt absolutely right to have Michele by my side. On the way into the church she steadied me and supported me as it was all I could do not to collapse onto … Continue reading →

Today we said goodbye to our beautiful Matilda Mae. It was a day of heartbreaking sadness, dawning realisation that our daughter is truly gone and a surreal feeling of peace and of calm as our family and friends gathered around … Continue reading →

David has written this sibling section of the funeral from the perspective of Esther and William. I may be biased but I think it is wonderful. I would love to know what you think. When Baby Tilda first arrived at … Continue reading →

My son Freddie was born into my blog and died on my blog; 8 years worth of readers awaited him and recognised the silence of a no daily post as meaning a birth had taken place. Some of those readers … Continue reading →

No mummy should have to write their baby’s funeral No mummy should have to grieve for their child No mummy should have to find a way of coping with their grief No mummy should have to find a way of … Continue reading →