When Esther and William were babies About 9 months old 6 months corrected Esther had a beautiful dress She did not wear dresses very often As she was so very tiny But this dress was a beauty It is one … Continue reading
10 days left in our month of Mae 10 days until the month’s finale A fitting tribute to our beautiful daughter A day filled with music and family fun A day to raise money and awareness for The Lullaby Trust … Continue reading
On Saturday we travelled to Warrington
To join our friends walking a mile in memory
A mile in memory of Matilda Mae
We were on our way to The Lakes
For a week of lake side living
And our friends agreed to help us
Hold Tilda’s Mile in Memory on the way
Heather, Susanne and Lisa worked hard to put together the perfect day
Last year our miles were big events
But this year I wanted something smaller
A special time in a special place
With special people
To remember our very special little girl
We walked at Walton Gardens
The sun was blazing down
The children loved the play park
Esther and William could not believe there was a Helter Skelter there!
We played and talked and set the walk
The very lovely Minty adorned us all
With Baby Tilda stars
And then we walked
We walked and talked
We remembered
It was a perfect pink and purple day
The walk was signposted with pink and purple balloons
The park was filled with pink and purple flowers
Including some very beautiful Baby Tilda bluebells
That made us think back to our first mile last year
It was wonderful to see all the children playing together
But tugged at my heart knowing the reason we were there
I could see all day the places she should be
Trying to copy the older children
Rolling down the hill
Esther and William had a wonderful time
Blowing bubbles
Catching bubbles
Remembering their sister
They even spotted pink and purple things
While riding on the train
It was a wonderful family day
A picnic in the park
And we remembered
As another year has passed
Without Matilda Mae
It will soon be 16 months that she has been gone
It just does not seem possible
Soon she will have been dead
For twice as long as she was alive
Another milestone I am dreading
Though of course it coincides exactly
With the expected arrival of our Rainbow
The mile in memory was magical
Just like Matilda Mae
I wonder where we will be walking next year
For our beautiful baby girl
In her memory
In her honour
With all our love
I wonder where and how we will walk next year?
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